Wooeee! I've lost ten pounds and feel great. I am still walking and 6 days out of the week I walk two mile. One day it seems all I can do is one mile. The weather has changed here and when I go out at 4 or 4:30 it is really cold. I am going to buy mittens and a cap this weekend plus a heavier jacket. But then it is 90 degrees during the day. Then by the time I leave at 5 it is much cooler. And by four in the morning it is freezing. Crazy weather.
Since I have started exercising I think more about what I eat or don't eat. Today was the monthly birthday celebration at work and of course they had cake with chocolate filling. I thought about eating it but then I thought about how hard I worked in the morning huffing and puffing and decided I wouldn't have a piece.
Plus I know if I allowed myself to eat it now the next time something tempting crosses my path I would probably eat it. It must be how a recovering alcoholic feels about taking that first drink. I just don't how thin people don't think about food all the time. So I am trying to eat healthier and I think about what I shouldn't eat or what I can eat. But I am still thinking about food all the time. I wish there was a switch in my brain I could flip where I wouldn't think about it incessently. There are so many other things to think about in this world but in my world it is all about food.
If anybody has any secrets about the "D" word let me know. Dieting is just the pits. There just doesn't seem to be any easy way to lose weight.
260 pounds and walking,
Love to you and yours,
NanaCarol
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Losing Myself in Burbank
It all started with wanting to start dating. After my divorce I didn't date because with four kids to support I didn't have much time to spare on another human being. And men do take up a lot of time. Then Mary Etta got sick and you all know how that turned out. Emotionally I didn't want a man. I was struggling to maintain my sanity and that it is still a questionable state. I dated a bit when the kids were grown but with dismal success.
But now my kids are grown and I finally think I am ready for some fun. About time at 62 huh? Well I had my first date after a couple of weeks of emailing and calling and he turned out to be very nice and a lot of fun. But at 270 pounds it was hard to keep up. Yes I have put my weight out there. And there is a reason for that. I want to be accountable to myself for my weight and my weight loss. So I am putting it on my blog. I am a visual person and writing it and reading it is my way of expressing my desire to be successful in reaching my goal. I want to look at food as sustenance rather then an occupation. I want my body to be able to keep up with other bodies and I want to see my granddaughters as grown up women. And I don't want to be feeble in a nursing home in a wheel chair drooling.
At 62 I have started thinking about how the rest of my life will be or how long it will be. If I am lucky maybe twenty more year. I look back on twenty years of my life and a lot happened on those twenty years. Which means a lot more can happen in the next twenty. Do I want to spend them sitting in the bleachers enjoying my life through my kids and grandchildren or do I want to walk up to home plate and come out swinging? (sorry for the sports analogy blame it my sons) .
I want to live my life. I want to have the energy to dance. I love to dance but I couldn't last five minutes now. I used to be able to dance the night away. I want some old codger to think I am better then sliced bread. And I want to be able watch my boys go through the torment of having teenage daughters. Now if that isn't motivation enough I don't know what is.
So I have started this blog to talk about the journey I am beginning. I am going to try to record from start to finished how I am going to reach my goal of being a healthier lighter weight person. And maybe somewhere along the journey I will meet someone to share the rest of my life with. Or at least meet someone to have some fun with.
I am not going to try to figure out how I got in this shape. I am sure that would take a life time of analysis and at 62 I don't care how I got this way. I want to figure how not be this way. And I am not going to pay for it in analysis, or pay for it in a weight loss program or by using any diet aids. I am going to do it the old fashion way by cutting down on my food intake and selecting foods that are useful for my body. And I have started walking. I am going to walk and blog my way into becoming healthier.
Being over weight most of my life I have noticed a basic difference between thin people and overweight people. Thin people don't think about food twenty four - seven. They actually may forget to eat and miss a meal. Miss a meal....forget to eat? That never happens with me. As I am eating one meal I am thinking about the next meal or snack. It sometimes seems the day is just one long snack.
So I am taking back my body and I am going to nurture it and care for it and once I have learned to do that maybe I will share it with some one. Woooeeee!
Day 1 9/30/08 270 lbs walked 1 mile
Day 2 10/1/08 walked 1.4 miles
Day 3 10/2/08 walked 2 miles yea!!!
Day 4 10/3/08 walked 2 miles
Day 5 10/3/08 walked 2 miles
Day 6 10/3/08 265 lbs walked 2 miles Yea!!!!
Love to you and yours,
NanaCarol
But now my kids are grown and I finally think I am ready for some fun. About time at 62 huh? Well I had my first date after a couple of weeks of emailing and calling and he turned out to be very nice and a lot of fun. But at 270 pounds it was hard to keep up. Yes I have put my weight out there. And there is a reason for that. I want to be accountable to myself for my weight and my weight loss. So I am putting it on my blog. I am a visual person and writing it and reading it is my way of expressing my desire to be successful in reaching my goal. I want to look at food as sustenance rather then an occupation. I want my body to be able to keep up with other bodies and I want to see my granddaughters as grown up women. And I don't want to be feeble in a nursing home in a wheel chair drooling.
At 62 I have started thinking about how the rest of my life will be or how long it will be. If I am lucky maybe twenty more year. I look back on twenty years of my life and a lot happened on those twenty years. Which means a lot more can happen in the next twenty. Do I want to spend them sitting in the bleachers enjoying my life through my kids and grandchildren or do I want to walk up to home plate and come out swinging? (sorry for the sports analogy blame it my sons) .
I want to live my life. I want to have the energy to dance. I love to dance but I couldn't last five minutes now. I used to be able to dance the night away. I want some old codger to think I am better then sliced bread. And I want to be able watch my boys go through the torment of having teenage daughters. Now if that isn't motivation enough I don't know what is.
So I have started this blog to talk about the journey I am beginning. I am going to try to record from start to finished how I am going to reach my goal of being a healthier lighter weight person. And maybe somewhere along the journey I will meet someone to share the rest of my life with. Or at least meet someone to have some fun with.
I am not going to try to figure out how I got in this shape. I am sure that would take a life time of analysis and at 62 I don't care how I got this way. I want to figure how not be this way. And I am not going to pay for it in analysis, or pay for it in a weight loss program or by using any diet aids. I am going to do it the old fashion way by cutting down on my food intake and selecting foods that are useful for my body. And I have started walking. I am going to walk and blog my way into becoming healthier.
Being over weight most of my life I have noticed a basic difference between thin people and overweight people. Thin people don't think about food twenty four - seven. They actually may forget to eat and miss a meal. Miss a meal....forget to eat? That never happens with me. As I am eating one meal I am thinking about the next meal or snack. It sometimes seems the day is just one long snack.
So I am taking back my body and I am going to nurture it and care for it and once I have learned to do that maybe I will share it with some one. Woooeeee!
Day 1 9/30/08 270 lbs walked 1 mile
Day 2 10/1/08 walked 1.4 miles
Day 3 10/2/08 walked 2 miles yea!!!
Day 4 10/3/08 walked 2 miles
Day 5 10/3/08 walked 2 miles
Day 6 10/3/08 265 lbs walked 2 miles Yea!!!!
Love to you and yours,
NanaCarol
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